Sunday, March 24, 2013

Be Better Today

President Lorenzo Snow once said "Do not expect to become perfect at once. If you do, you will be disappointed. Be better today than you were yesterday, and be better tomorrow than you are today"

I think that should be my new motto. I'm a perfectionist. I always want to be perfect at everything I do. What I'm extra perfect at is beating myself up when I'm not perfect. It's something I'm working on improving and I think the above quote is a great reminder to me that I need to take it one day at a time. Perfection occurs over a lifetime, not in a single day.

Sunday, March 17, 2013

The Switch

For over 6 months I went to a psychiatrist. My first visit with him started with a visit with a counselor. The counselor asked me all sorts of questions. Then we (I made my husband come with me) waited while the counselor told the psychiatrist what I had told him. That frustrated both of us because we felt like the psychiatrist should have heard first hand what was going on if he really wanted to help solve the problems. We then visited with the psychiatrist for a few minutes, he changed up my meds then we were done. After that, subsequent visits were always less than 5 minutes. He'd ask a few basic questions, adjust meds if needed then I'd be on my way. The longer it went the more frustrating I became.

A tender mercy came into my life when I attended a Relief Society activity on mental health. The teacher was a nurse practitioner who was also LDS. She really knew her stuff. We eventually discovered that she was moving up to our area to start a new practice. That was still several months away but we weren't sure when.

I was getting more frustrated with my doctor. My good friend started pressuring me to find out when the nurse practitioner was moving up. My friend wouldn't let it go. So finally I started trying to figure that out. It took multiple phone calls to finally hunt her down, but I finally did. And am I ever grateful.

On my first appointment she visited with me for almost an hour. She asked all sorts of questions that gave her an idea of how to help me. It was such a blessing. Since then, our visits have been great I finally feel like I'm getting somewhere. She has changed my meds and they have helped so much. It's been such a huge blessing. I'm so grateful my friend kept pestering me to get in to see her. Recently I found out there is a 2 1/2 month wait for new patients to get in to see her. What a blessing that a didn't wait!

I really think all of this is a tender mercy from the Lord. Through all of this trial I have seen His hand guiding me so many times. I'm so grateful for that!